Today I decide to be wealthy.
Lesson #2 in the books is to "take ownership" of one's finances.
I realize that I am so deep in doo-doo financially. I have good intentions, like making charts showing what bills need to be paid, and I do make them, and then misplace them. I intend to make phone calls, and then forget. I find one excuse after another not to follow through. I went through my check books to see how much I still had out, and how much was available for paying bills. Tithing money was put into money orders yesterday, so that it wouldn't go through the checking account, so that I wouldn't mistake it as mine. "Pay your tithing and a fast offering," Elder Golden said. "Many people in Africa are very poor, but they do it, and miracles happen." I see myself as still being in this financial situation for the indefinite future, but really, if it were anything else, would I do any better? I think a certain woman I know has been through three or four marriages, and now she's single again, and on disability. Would I handle her challenges any better?
I have three major job applications that need (for my sake) to be turned in on Monday. Deadline for one is the 12th, another is the 22nd. The other one, I'll turn in Monday, when I go to town in the afternoon. Today I worked on Ida's book, got some research materials, and I also combed the internet, looking for jobs to apply to. One of the people I used to work for told me that it was just as well that I didn't get hired on at Touchmark, and explained why.
I noticed when I was driving down Third Street, that the dry cleaners has vacated its building. The laundromat is still there. The real estate agency that was a couple of blocks away was also empty. Grover's Pub, where one of my co-workers said had the best pizza in town, had its lights turned off. Craigslist has more openings, but they are professional ones. I suspect that people are still moving out of the area.
Monday I'll take these applications in, and go apply at motels as a motel maid, at the larger motels, and go to Labor Ready, which is a work-today, pay-today/job placement and Goodwill, which is also a job placement place.
I was at Fred Meyer, and saw two of my former coworkers and a young man who works there, who is the same age as my daughters, whom I used to teach in church. I said hi to them, and they back as we walked past each other, and Shelly stopped to care about me, asking me how I was doing, and giving me her time, showing that she cares. She could see that I was just figurative when I said that I was doing fine. "Hang in there, she said, "that's all you can do sometimes."
I thought some about a talk in church a Sunday or so ago:
We people are first watch people, but God is a fourth watch God. The speaker explained that the Hebrew day in the Bible was divided into night and day, with the day having twelve hours and night having four three-hour watches. God will always answer our prayers, but in His time. We want our prayers answered now, but God sometimes wants us to learn something first, and sometimes what we want or need takes time to arrange, but they will be answered, even though the answer is not what we would have thought it would be.
I had my blessing last Sunday, and I was told that Heavenly Father is aware of my challenges.
Today I decide to be wealthy.
